Matlick Miracle

I was 7 weeks pregnant and found out Apr 10 that it was an ectopic pregnancy. After all day at various doctors, many hours in the ER, and being in denial that this diagnosis was true, I reluctantly agreed to a methotrexate shot to end the pregnancy. The GYN told me that my life was in danger if refused, if I did not take steps to end the pregnancy and assured me that the baby would not have survived regardless because my numbers weren't looking good all along. I felt like I was having a nervous breakdown having to make that decision because my husband & I have had so many disappointments over the past 11 years with other miscarriages.

I thought this was different, I thought this baby was finally our miracle.

As this was on Good Friday, I can only believe that God was trying to protect me; given the events that took place that day which led me to the ER. I am still numb and cry a lot, but my GYN assures me once this medicine is out of my system, we can try again.

I miss our little miracle each minute, I can't get the flutters and feelings of early pregnancy out of my mind, I pray that I made the right decision, pray for forgiveness, and am lucky to have such a wonderful husband by my side.